I've been increasingly more impatient and far less forgiving of myself - and the screams. This is not a fun place to be. So, tonight, I decided to remind myself that this is a new moment. Whatever Baby Bear or I did 5 minutes ago is in the past. We get a do-over RIGHT NOW. I cuddled her up, told her I loved her, and waited for her to feel right enough to sleep. Then I opened a book.
The next chapter in my book was about a canoe trip in the Boundary Waters. It brought back so many memories of a self-care retreat I had taken in the same area. I was reminded of the beautiful women I spent those days with. The beauty that happens when people experience a spiritual and emotional bond.
I am reminded that there is a "bigger picture" to the smaller moments. Each minute shapes us and connects us. Each moment leaves an imprint. And at the same time, each moment presents a fresh start. A new turn. A different choice.